i feel like shit, dont go out, or pass out at a club and then wake up to realise the club had closed.
you said friends with benefits, that means no feelings, boy did we fuck that up
So fucking lonely what the hell did you do to me Paul honestly. Congratulations you cracked the one person who never got feelings, then you kiss me in front of everyone and call it quits three days later.
Let’s just leave everything unsaid, because it’s easier that way isn’t it? To run away and hide from everything even more.
schoolies is the most fucked up week of your life.
This whole thing is now so fucked up. No it wasn’t me who said it, that’s not what I would do I would never treat you that way.
I MOTHER FUCKING GRADUATE TODAY
ps. don’t start to develop feelings for someone in term 4 of year 12 because you will get to the day of your maths exam and go “fuck, what the hell did we even learn about this entire term”
you can’t just leave it for a week for me to get over you and then turn around and say we need to talk and give me your jacket then be cute and say all that shit and then kiss me
It’s like trying to say something you’ve never heard, there are no words. I hate being like this, I have no fucking idea how you could have messed me up this much in just one month but I look at you and my heart aches. I can’t do this to myself anymore, this entire thing whatever it is just fucking sucks - well played Paul, you win.
I can’t do whatever this is anymore. I see you and it seems like you have this whole other side to you that you keep so secret and locked up that nobody knows and that’s fine, I respect privacy everyone has secrets. But I like you way too much to do this to myself. I can’t sit here and wait for something that is never going to happen or so it looks like. I’m sorry. X
It physically hurts me to not be around you